It’s been a long time since I wrote something. Maybe that’s because it’s been a long time since I felt something. I’ve been numb for so long. Once I started to look back on my life I realized who I am; where I stand. It’s hard. Being a closed book. It’s indecisive. Complicated. It’s something anxiety and other compared things takes over every time. It’s hard to understand something confusing. It’s hard to even understand something that’s not confusing. It’s not worth hiding though. Anxiety, the complications, the confusion. It should all be embraced. Once you’re comfortable with the fact these flaws exist it’ll be easier to conquer. Then you’re winning. not the things which made you lose.